I Love My Fear

One of my favorite quotes is from Dave Tate.  He said, “Real fear makes men do amazing things they would never do without it.”  I’ve done a lot of reflecting over the past couple of weeks and what Dave said has really stuck with me.  As I lead my life in other directions I look forward to but also fear the future.  I fear falling into “that’s just the way it is” mindset, I fear defeat,   I fear feeling I put myself in a situation where I can’t make a difference, I fear that I’m leaving a one-of-a-kind place.  But just as Tate says, I love my fear.   Is that weird that I feel that way?  Is it weird to say that yes, I do love my fear.  If I was just a normal person who had never set foot in SAPT’s doors then maybe it would be.  However, as I leave SAPT I feel ready and able to embrace my fears. Reflecting back on the years at SAPT I remember vividly entering the facility for the first time and being in awe.  I was in awe of the work ethic, the drive, the training, the coaching, it was all amazingly overwhelming.  I felt like I couldn’t hang with any of them; the coaches, the athletes and clients, they were all above me.  What could I offer these people?  As I’ve gone on these past couple of years those fears have gone away; I’ve become a good coach and an even better man for being at SAPT.  The coaches who I now call family and the athletes and clients I’ve worked with have made me understand that if you embrace your fears you can make a difference.  I don’t know if the coaches and people of SAPT understand just how important they’ve been in making me the person I am but I hope they do.  I hope they realize how thankful I am to all of them for everything they’ve given me.  Leaving SAPT is extremely hard for me and I want everyone to know that I am eternally grateful and I truly wish you all nothing but the best life has to offer.

As I said before I fear the future,  I fear falling into “that’s just the way it is” mindset, I fear defeat,   I fear feeling I put myself in a situation where I can’t make a difference, I fear that I’m leaving a one-of-a-kind place.  However, in reflection I’ve come to understand that I am not truly leaving SAPT because SAPT is not something you leave.  Once you’ve been there it becomes a part of you and it is a place that will be with me always.  With all this said if there is one thing the people and coaches of SAPT have taught me it’s that, you have to love your fear.

How Will You Succeed?

I stumbled across this on Facebook the other day.  Normally I just scroll through things like this; it doesn't usually make a huge impact on my day.  For some reason though this one stuck when I saw it.  I'm not entirely sure why but it just struck a chord with me, and I really liked it.  I believe it was the first line that might have done it for me, "I succeed because I am willing to do the things that you are not."  I have a lot of changes going on in my life and this line made me think about all the athletes and clients I've worked with over the past couple of years at SAPT.  The large majority of which have succeeded or will succeed in the near future.  Is this because of me or the other coaches at SAPT?  I say no.  The coaching staff at SAPT is merely a vehicle our athletes and clients have used to travel on the road to success.  It's something they posses within themselves that has gotten them to where they are.  As I said SAPT was just the vehicle, it was up to them to turn on the car and drive down the path.  The people I look back on and also the ones I currently watch train now have something their peers do not. They succeed because they are willing to do the things their peers are not.  They are willing to wake up in the early morning during their summer break to come train hard.  They are willing to come in after a long, hard day at work and get after it.  They are willing to train through and around injuries.  They are willing to hold onto hope that they will get past those injuries, even when it seems like all hope is lost they still do not ever give up.  And they are willing and able to understand that success does not happen over night but only through hard, grueling work.

When I think about the kids, teenagers and adults I've worked with I am in awe of their drive, their tenacity and most importantly their heart.  I am forever grateful to them for the inspiration and motivation they have given me and the other SAPT coaches.  They will never stop getting better, they will never give up... Ever. That is why they succeed.

How will you succeed?